ryan:-
I wait everyday till 8 in the office even if there is no work.All my team mates ask why do I do so?
how can I tell them that I don't wait for any personal or official work but the only reason why I is a 'girl' who boards the 8 pm bus with me. Truly speaking, I like her.She might not be one of those who look like aish or kat but she's cute and simple n dat's the reason i like her. For past 6 months i've been staring at her in bus.
Whenever I get in to bus somehow my eyes search the whole bus for her glimpse.I didnt ever had any girlfriend.Girls prefer tall-dark-handsome,guys which I am not.I dont want to jump into any relation.I just want friendship.I just want to talk to her.I know her name, for I had seen her ID one day but I dont have guts to talk to hr.I even dont know if she knows me even by face.I know, no one can help me here but I simply have no guts.At least some one probably a common friend might introduce us!
ryan:-
My roommate told me to approach her and get introduced to her by myself.Its not that easy; this is not a college,what if she complains to others? No,I cant take this risk.Some one else better introduce her to me.God help me.
aanya:
My cousin told me to show some sign to him that I am okay in having friendship with him.I think he is afraid to come forward.I'll give him a good friendly smile tomorrow.I hope he understands ; decrypts my signal.God,can u help him?
GOD:
Now should I come into this picture? Both these humans are acting as if they are in a big problem. Although its not because of me,I had made life so simple for you, just added a bit of emotions there ; see how complex you have made it. I won't interfere here. I have created this world with some fixed rules and I can't break my own rules thereby disrupting the balance of this whole system.
ryan:
Today wen I got into d bus ; looked at her, she returned back a cute smile.Was she serious?I dont know probably she must hav told her frnds abt me ; they must hav been makin fun of me ; thats why when I got into bus she started laughing n I misunderstood it for smile.Such a fool I am.
aanya:
Today when he got into the bus, I smiled at him.But he seemed to be more puzzled than pleased.Is he really interested in having friendship with me or not? I really dont know.Why am I thinking so much about him?Have I started liking him? Please God let that guy be a decent one. My sixth sense says he's decent.I think he must hav got puzzled because of my smile.It was not my fault,for I showed him that I am Interested in frndship.Will he dare first to talk?
ryan:
I am confused.Every day everyone around me gives me tactics to approach her but nothing suits me well.I am leaving it now on luck.
ryan:
Since that evening thing has happened,I have left staring at her.I dont know but some inner voice is telling me to keep away.I am not a beggar to b treated like this.She is beautiful,indeed, bt dat dsnt mean she can insult me like dat.I hav sworn not to look at her again anymore.But I cant stay like this. I just like her ann want to be wid her.She has committed a mistake,but wasnt dat a bit natural?She doesnt like me n doesnt want to encourage my feelings abt her.Simple isnt it?I dont think I can manage not to have even a look at her.Will I be able to do it? Oh God,please help me.
aanya:
Today he seemed to have lost in thoughts.when he got into bus,he did not search for me.He even did not look up.He went straight to last seat ; started reading novel.I tried looking at him but he did not lift his head at all.I think he is hurt,I am feeling sorry,but what can i do? when we got down at office gate,I purposefully lingered to give back him a smile, but i could not spot him in d crowd.Friend I m sorry please be normal again.
aanya:
Today i saw him in the food court.He was there with two girls and was chatting, laughing, cracking jokes. He seemed to enjoy the company.Is he also a typical boy who just wants to have as many girls around him as possible? Is he typical flirt? Probably the 2 girls were just good friends of him.At least I hope so.Please God please let those be his sisters or just friends, nothing else.
GOD:
U dont remember me when you are happy or contempt do u?When there is a prob or a really difficult situation then you start remembering me.I still wont interfere here.My world is a complex entity with each n every thing or event properly planned for some specific future as well as past reason.why should I interfere and break the balance.
ryan:
I was working in night shift for the whole week so had to travel by cab rather than bus,I used to work from 4 pm to 2 am so naturally I had lost contact with almost all people working in day shift except for my teammates who would surrender the charge to me while leaving for the day.For the whole week i didnt travel by bus.Obviously i did not see her.She works in the adjacent building only,but i dont know where her cubicle is located.I did not see her for whole week but i didnt feel any desperation to see her.
aanya:
I saw him today,at the movie screening.Thank god he is still working with this company only.I thought of smiling at him n greeting him.I was so happy to see him,I wanted to ask him where he was for so many days,Whether he was not well or was he using bike for transport,but again I didnt ask a single question.I hope he starts travellin by bus again.So that Everyday we can see each other in the morning and wish each other good morning by a plain look.
aanya:
I resumed my normal duty today.It was good to see all those familiar faces once again after so many days.Of course my eyes were searching only one face out of dat.I got into bus.She was sitting there with same plain look on her face,but when she saw me,her face reflected a small smile.It couldnt escape my notice.Was she happy to see me back in bus? I dont know about her,but I was definitely happy to see her.Weekend is coming ahead hope it will bring something good in my life. BTW today new movie is getting released.Promos looks good must plan to watch it.
aanya:
I was so happy..
i felt lyk getting up frm my seat n just sit beside him n talk,talk n just talk to him.Hey whats this,whats happening to me?Is this love?No chance, I dont believe in love at first sight.Probably just infatuation, whatever it may be but I'm loving this feeling very much...
ryan:
today can be called the luckiest day of my life. I talked to her face to face for the first time.RAJ, my friend had some work today ; was traveling by our bus n surprisingly he knew her well.they were college mates. He introduced us formally.I was so happy,that I just forgot that sometime back she just avoided sitting beside me.Now I can talk to her,I hope I can turn this chance 2 success.Oh God thanks a lot.
aanya:
Thanks a lot God.I am so happy.Even he was.I could easily make that out from his face.It was just so bright.He still has feelings for me.I thought I had lost him, but no.Now we can talk to each other officially.No problem of who will take the first step.Me and ryan are now friends.god you are great..!!
RAJ :
Today I had some work so had to travel by bus.I thought better to go with ryan just for sake of good company but then I saw my best friend from college.It was a pleasant surprise to see her after so long.She has become more beautiful than she was in college days.Why the hell did I neglect her in college when she had a crush on me..
I hope she is still single.I would like a simple girl like her to get settled in life.When I introduced ryan to her,somehow her face lit up as if she was eager to have a word with him.RYAN's condition was no different.Do they have something in b/w them?I hope not.
Oh god, just keep RYAN out of this.
GOD:
If u get only happiness u do not feel its value, do u?Thats y everything is planned.I have not done nothing special here..Its all just predestined
RYAN :
Since adi has introduced us to each other,the days have been very good for us..I mean I did not talk to her or so,but at least we exchange smile regularly.Lets see whether I can sit beside her sometime n have a word or two. .
ryan:
Since last few days,she was reserving seat in the morning as well as in the evening bus.we both seem to enjoy each others company very well. I decided to take a step forward today. I asked her for a cup of coffee in the afternoon.I was a bit depressed about what she might reply but surprisingly, she said yes without thinking even for a moment as if she was actually waiting for a such a move from my side.we decided to meet at 4 near the cafe inside the campus. She didn't turn up.I did nt had her cell no. So even I couldn't call her and ask y she did so it was so embarrassing 4 me
to wait there just alone. Did she do it purposefully?
Why?
I could make out no sensible reason.
aanya:
Today there happened a real disaster.The servers were down and I was so busy in recovering them, debugging the code that I almost forgot I had my 1st date wit RYAN. I suddenly remembered it just before going to a meeting at 2 and I was sure that I can easily finish off with the meeting by 4 and meet ryan but no; destiny have other plans. I had to be in meeting till 5. I even couldn't phone RYAN and inform as I did not have his number. By the time I was free from that chaos, it was already 6. He must have left for the day. He was going to Mumbai today, so he must have left early.What can I do? I wanted to meet him to apologize face to face.. Mail or phone won't do. I hope we meet on Tuesday.
Ill explain him everything. He is a nice guy .He will understand me properly. I am hoping so obviously I dont have any other option at least till Tuesday.
RYAN:
What the hell what does she think of herself?
Today she invited me for a coffee at 4. I went there on time. I didnt want to miss it but again she didnt turn up. Why? Is she just stressing how important she is and how unimportant I am for her?
I felt like calling her there only ; just ask d reason y is she playing games with me like dis.I decided 2 ask this 4 full and final what the matter was, but she didnt turn up even for 8 o clock bus..
Ryan:
I couldn't see her for last three days.Did she came 2 office? Isnt she feeling well?I hope she is alright oh! god pls protect her.
RAJ:
Her father was seriously ill. As a family friend, I helped a lot. She couldnt go to office for a fortnight or so, but I helped her in conveying the matter to her seniors. I think this last week helped me a lot as in building a rapport with her and her parents.Fate has given me a good chance to get closer to her, I think I can progress here.
Aanya:
Today I met him finally after so many days. I thought he might be still angry about the coffee thing, but to my surprise, he was a bit tensed as to why I was not coming to the office..
I explained him that daddy was seriously ill.He enquired about dad's health and then simply changed the subject to turn my attention to somewhere else.He was just trying to take me out of the tension about dad's health. He is such a mature guy, I knew he would understand.
aanya:
ryan and I have been going out for a long time now. I have started loving him.I think even he is serious about this relationship but he is younger than me and I dont think he is ready for any commitment at this stage of his life,but mumma and dad are persuading me for marriage. what should I do? Should I ask him?
aanya:
ryan told me today that he is leaving the company. He has got an admission to MBA in a College in Mumbai.It's really difficult to be away from him for such a long time. Should I ask him for a relationship? Will he be ready for that,
or he just wants to wait till the completion of his MBA? But I can't wait that much.I think I'll better ask him straight about the commitment let's see what he says.
aanya:
Today was ryan's birthday and also his last day in Bengalooru as well as in this company. He left in the evening for Mumbai.It was really a heartbreaking moment to see him parting, especially when both of us were completely aware that we might not see each other in future.I had made the decision the only problem was how to convey it to him.
I chose to be practical than just blind in love.People give you cool gifts on your birthday but what I gave him was just a shock, a damn big shock.He didnt say anything except for congrats ; good luck but his face told me everything he wanted to convey.
I cried there standing in the whole crowd of his friends who had gathered to wish him luck and goodbye. He couldnt cry out but if possible, he could just have wept then and there.I told him that adi had proposed me for marriage and I felt sorry that I chose RAJ over him. What he replied was surprising.
He just replied, No need to say sorry. Its your life,you have complete right to make a decision and you are mature enough to do so and you have made a wise decision. We were friends and will be, but please dont expect me to keep a contact with you...
.. I loved you and I really loved you from the bottom of my heart...
Now whenever I will think of you I will not have anything else than love in my mind and I think same might be the case with you and that wont be right specially when you will be a married woman; married to someone else. So this is our last meet. Thanks for the friendship and the feeling of love that you gave me. Best luck for your future life. And he just went inside the bus.Was he so aloof or he just tried to sound so as not to make me feel worse about our parting?how could he behave so normally? I think for all those days that I spent with RYAN, I still couldnt understand him properly. Anyways RYAN, the
truth is that I loved you like anything but the decision I made was based on practical aspects of life. My decision will prove to be better for both of us and I am damn sure of it. I had started writing diary since when I had seen you for the first time, now since you are not there in my life,I am going to discontinue this practice. This is the last page of my diary.
Best of luck RYAN, for your future. Love you. Bye-bye
RAJ:
Finally,today is that lucky day for me.She said yes. I am so happy. She is mine. Finally my dream has come true. Oh God thanks a lot. You have made my day, in fact my life. Very few people get to live with someone they love I am one of those lucky ones. My happiness has no bounds. I am very very happy today. RYAN left the company today, I dont know whether we will be able to meet each other in future. I had gone to say good bye and wish good luck to him. He was talking to her. When I saw her face, I again felt some pain in my heart. Are they both having something?
if so, why did she say Yes to me? Are they trying to cover-up something? Or is she playing games with me? Or am I coming as an odd between the two? I could see tears in jai's eyes when he left her and got into the bus.Her condition was no different, in fact she literally cried.
RAJ : She seemed to recover after a couple of minutes but the way she was looking somewhere into the vacuum, her face was clearly telling her diligent attempts to control tears. Oh god, please show me the way. I hope I didnt do anything wrong by proposing her .The way they both were talking to each other didnt show any sign of quarrel or fight between them. Then why they separated? Or they shared some feeling for each other and none of them just bothered to express it? Whatever the situation might be, she has said 'yes' to me must be for some reason, whatever she is mine now..
RYAN is her past and she will forget him in fact she will have to. Whatever the case may be
I love her and thats it..
MORAL:
GOD:
Ok.Here is the end of this story, not a unique; in fact a very common one and a very sad ending personally for me. You might be expecting me to interfere in it at the eleventh hour and change the ending so that either; before the bus starts, She runs to the bus and gets into it and goes with RYAN to Mumbai or probably when the bus is about to leave, RYAN jumps out and hugs her or RAJ feels something wrong and just takes her on bike and follows the bus just to stop it and make her get into the bus for RYAN and so on?
But even I cannot help people who cannot help themselves and also as I said before, I had already decided not to intervene and I stuck to my word. Every thing in the life comes with a price and if you are not ready to pay for it then you will lose it. And it looked to me that the girl was not ready to pay the price for her love who is RYAN now. She chose the easy way out which was with RAJ. She took the decision after evaluating each option she had.
AANYA: Its been one year since i've heard from RYAN.I dont know why I still cant get over him, every night I go to sleep thinking of him , and he's the first thought I have in my mind when I get up.He was so special, the way he looked into my eyes, the way he made me laugh, the way he listened to my rubbish talks, his care, his love..just cant get over you RYAN
God ! If I kept thinking of RYAN like this, how will I be able to give RAJ his share of love. Me and RAJ are getting married next month, and I havent even thought of him like my groom. I have no feelings for him. Am I cheating him. Am I lying to myself. I thought I would get over RYAN with time but I still love him from the deepest
core of my heart.The way his left me has left my soul craving for his love. I still write love letters to him every now and then and keep them in my closet for no reason. have I made a wrong choice by being practical? was I too selfish? Gosh ! I am so puzzled.
2 days later.
RAJ :very soon me and AANYA will be united forever.My family, my friends, everyone is so happy and jubilant. I have given wedding invitation to RYAN also.I hope he makes it to the wedding.Everything is so fine,but still something is missing.Damn! I am too busy dreaming about the marriage that I've forgotten that its Aany's birthday
today.May be I should go to her home now and give her a surprise and make up for my mistake.what should I give her as a gift..
RAJ(to jeweler): No dear,I've already given her a ring, hmmm.. gold bracelet will also be nice idea, but its not clicking. Earrings?? yeah, good idea, but she already has a very beautiful pearl earring set which she will never remove.Do you have anything else?
Jeweler:How about this exclusive diamond pendant sir ! Its just arrived in the store, and its one of a kind also.
RAJ:Yeah its nice. ( whoa ! this heart shaped diamond pendant; set in platinum, with a rim of red rubies on the sides is so gorgeous and attractive,she's gonna fall in love with it. And I believe it will compliment her necklace as well. ) this is the sort of stuff I was looking for.please pack it for me. No.. wait.. dont pack.. just give it loose to me.
RAJ: I think i can make the surprise a bit more special by gettin this pendant coated with nice chocolate layer, that too shaped in the form of a heart.let the first kiss of love reveal the secret gift to her. : I hope she doesnt swallow it. The risk is worth taking though and I will warn her in advance to dismiss all chances of an accident.
RAJ goes to AANYA's house in the evening but all the effort he made in preparing the surprise were nearly in vain when the house maid told him that nisha madam has just left for an urgent meeting and will come 2 hours later. RAJ decided to wait as it would have been useless to unleash the surprise gift on any other day, and there were major chance of him not getting his reward for the gift.
RAJ: hmm.. I can definitely wait for two hours, I dont want to spoil the surprise by calling her and forcing her to come urgently. That would spoil her mood. Lets have a look around the room till then.I must say, girls may be unorganised within their minds, but they do keep their rooms very neat and clean. ("well ! just a few days wait RAJ dear and your room will also be as much neat as hers...", he said to himself.)
(Two hours later AANYA arrived.maid told her that 'RAJ sir was here and he waited for some time for you.. but then he left in about a half an hour.he gave me this chocolate to give to you.')
AANYA: chocolate?? Is this all he could think of as a birthday gift for her fiancée.I am disappointed.He is so unromantic..huh! (a few moments pause, while she explores the heart shaped chocolate,wrapped with golden metal foil and tied up with a red velvet ribbon while playing with her hair locks, and then she smiles.) haah..! But I am happy he at least remembered it. Hey, the chocolate has a note with it tied around by the red ribbon..may be he has written some mushy birthday quote or something. I am so eager to read it.(quickly unfolds the note and reads) "chocolates are meant to be melted in mouth and not to be eaten" hmm what does he mean by this ? May be he is commenting on the way I quickly binge on chocolates. he he, teaser boy. Okay raj, I'll not eat it at all and keep it safe with me as my first birthday gift from you.
Oh raj! i would have been more happy if you would have just written happy birthday instead of this silly note. :sigh:
AANYA: This is the fifth time I am calling him. Is everything all right ? Why isnt he picking up my call? Is he upset by my not being on home when he came to greet me ? But what was my mistake ? I didnt even knew he was coming otherwise I would have cancelled the meeting all together. But he has all rights to be angry, after all i am going to be his soulmate.
Its too late and I should sleep now. I will apologize and convince him tomorrow morning.
AANYA: Its been three days since he has received my call. I am worried for him. May be I should go to his place and check whether everything's fine or not.And if he is ignoring me just to show his importance, I will give him a tight slap.(her eyes get watery, with a sudden shift in the pitch of her voice) He is torturing me so much without reason.what does he thinks of himself.Is this all a joke for him?
(AANYA goes to raj's home)
AANYA: what the hell ! he has even locked the door of his home. Where is he? how can he leave for so long without even letting me know. Hey wait ! there's a paper peeking out from the bottom of the door,it reads: "I knew you would come here, I am sorry AANYA, please go to the following link to decode my message.
"http://IlovedyouAANYA.com/"..but REMEMBER, you will have to log on to this website exactly at 5.00 pm on wednesday.
Is it a prank or what? Is this guy crazy. doing this geeky stuff at this point of time.And why has he used such a suspicious name of the website.RAJ, you dont know how much you are hurting your love. May be its another surprise. Lets check this out before I take the next step. Its wednesday today and its already 3 pm. I should
go home quick and log on to this website exactly on time.
AANYA: hmm.. so its 5 pm now. Okay, lets type the address and see what Mr. Raj wants to say now. It better be something pleasing and he has to give a good reason for his behavior. After all, he has given me so much pain in the past three days. Lets type the address .. http://ilovedyouaanya.com/
loading..
ohh! what a beautiful website.
l never knew Raj was such a good web designer. These romantic animations are just so pleasing and touching. The links are;
1.Our first date: He has uploaded a few very touching photos here. Esp. the one in which we are holding hands with the sun setting in the background.
2 The day I saw you first: Ohh! these pics from our college days. He never told me about this. He has taken so many photos of mine. Did I also held a place in his heart when I had a crush on him? If only I would have known about this earlier. I would never have fallen for RYAN
3.The day you wore the red kanjivaram saree: So many more pics of mine, With love poems and quotes posted beneath each photo. I never knew RAJ loved me so much that he secretly collected all this stuff. you are so sweet raj.
4.My dream date with you would have been: " I would have loved to take you to a hut that I would have built by my own hands in the Amazon rainforest, isolated from the outer world but united in our dream world we'd remain. Where every roar of tiger and every hiss of rattlesnake will make you fall in my arms".. aww my baiby, sow suweeet !! and I thought this guy is unromantic !(AANYA exclaimed with joy)
5. varmala game: what's this !! i have to put varmala in neck of RAJ's animated character which was held by my mehandi clad hands with kangans and jewelry on them,but hey.. this animated character is jumping haywire all around the screen, no matter how hard I try, I cannot put varmala in RAJ's neck..pheww! I am tired. It looks an impossible task.
why would he put such a game here? Is this a serious signal or is he just teasing me. Nevertheless, I will play this game later.lets go to the last and final link which says..
5. 'please forgive me': Hmm..why would i need to forgive him. what wrong has he done??
In this link RAJ says:" on your birthday I came to your room, your maid informed me that you will be back in 2 hours so I decided to check out your room, it was so neat and clean..the perfectly done bedsheet and the fresh fragrance of the perfume you used sometime ago made me feel like I am in a luxury hotel room .. I checked out your cupboard, it had a vast variety of clothes in it.I never knew you used so much accessories and cosmetics, you always looked
so natural and serene.
The pink color theme of the room with baby pink wall, pink blanket with flowers on it, pink-white cusions and a very light pink bed-sheet was not much of my taste but it suited you so much..Then i went towards your almirah, I knew where the keys were but I was first hesitant to open it, then I thought that I was going to be your soul-mate so I have every right to check out each and every part of your life and that includes the drawers of your almirah..so I went forward and opened it..but what I saw there changed everything...
I saw your diary and a huge bunch of envelopes..your diary told me everything about your relation with RYAN..you had written a detailed account of how you both met, how your relation developed, how much you loved him, and the day you confessed your love to him when he was going to mumbai for MBA,all of which you never told me about..
you had written so many love letters to RYAN that it was hard to keep a count of them,all of them you wrote and kept with yourselves..still cant figure out the reason for it,may be you wanted the angels of god to convey your message to him..or may be you thought some day he will make it to your bed room to find it out all by himself...but destiny ! they went to wrong hands..
the way you wrote each letter, the depth in the words, the passion and love in each sentence,the sketches you have made of him,the poems you wrote for him and particularly the one that you had written in blood was yelling it out loud about how much you still loved him..
how could you hide such a big thing from me.If you loved him then you shouldnt have said yes to me.. why did you spoiled three lives together?I m hurt nisha.. I am seriously hurt..the pain is so deep and grinding that I would never be able to express it in words. you cheated me..and RYAN too..
RAJ:.. I m feeling guilty that even after having a good idea about the chemistry between you two, I proposed you and broke up a loving couple.If it were not for me, you would have definitely waited for him to come back from mumbai..I always knew you you had a big place reserved in your heart for him but I was so blinded by my love that I could never see the obvious coming..I lied to myself far too many times that you also love me a lot, even though I never sensed even a small hint of love from your side..
Its hard to imagine how much RYAN would also be feeling jealous and hurt..for the love of his life had decided to marry his friend..for practical reasons?? you were going to marry me for practical reasons? you never had any feelings for me..? I was just an alternate to RYAN just because he was goin for MBA and you couldnt wait for 2 years you decided to go with me instead..Is this all the value for me that my love could buy from you..
I dont think I can get into relation with you having this feeling of inferiority and guilt in my mind..I cant live like a beggar forever trying to beg and steal love from you ...
but I also cant live without you.. for I love you from each and every piece of my broken heart.I love you AANYA.. I love you more than anything and anyone in this whole wide world..
AANYA: oh my god !!... I never expected this to happen..what is he gonna do now.. is he gonna leave me .. or give me one more chance to prove myself..?
he has asked me to log on to mail account as soon as i read this and turn on the video camera for chat..I think this is my last chance..may be he wants me to give explanations about what all has happened but doesnt want to sit directly in front of me because than I will cry out and he will have to change his decision without me having to give a proper explanation ...I think he has chosen a right alternative to come on video chat, I would try evry bit possible to convince him that I love him only..and that RYAN was my past and I would try to forget him soon..
video call..turr..turr..
(the video footage comes live from a very high cliff... with very pleasant lush green surrounding..and a windy and rainy environment..)
AANYA:where is this footage coming from..my heart is beating very hard now..why on earth would RAJ go to a mountain top to have me on video call, is this footage being aired by some mistake..God, my man is mad..its raining also, he must be feeling cold..but where is he, why is he still not in front of camera..??
(a few seconds later a whispering sound comes from the speakers;
"I Lohhved youuhhh Aaahnnnyaaa"
The whisper was mysterious and and it showed the pain of the person who whispered..it at once sent chillers down the spine of aanya, her eyes lit up and her face depicted the shock she was in..her heart started thumping like a piston rod..
and than a silhouette (outline of a person) emerges on the screen, his back is visible while he walks slowly in opposite direction..the walk itself told how dejected and grief-stricken the person was.visuals were not very clear due to fog and rain)
AANYA: ohh my god..thats RAJ, its his favourite white shirt and blue jeans he always wears when we are on a date.. ohh...RAJ why are you.. you going towards the end of the cliff..listen to me RAJ, please listen to me..I love you Raj .. I love you...please listen to me once..I will correct all my mistakes raaaj... :sob: please listen to me raj..I beg you .... please dont...dont jumpp... I love you...RAAAAAAAAJJ....
nisha fainted after what she saw on his computer screen..
(one year later..)
AANYA:
Its been an year since raj left me forever... i will never be able to forgive myself for what I did..how will I be able to forget the blank and painful stare Raj gave me before jumping from the mountain..or the flying kiss he gave when he was walking towards the end of the cliff.He should have given me at least one chance to explain.. I wrote love letters to RYAN and kept it with myself only to let out the storm of feelings that I had inside .. if I hadnt done this, i wouldnt have ever been able to behave normally...but its true that I had cheated him.
I was so blind in my love for RYAN that I had forgot that someone loved me much more how much I loved RYAN..for I couldnt wait for two years for my love to come back to me and Raj decided to take away his life and wait for me till eternity..
I had reserved all my love and feelings for RYAN only and never let Raj enter into my heart, all the fault is mine.. I made wrong choices and I am the culprit for the loss of one innocent life..if only I could turn back time and correct my mistakes.. but alas.. its not possible..I have cheated both Raj and Ryan and thats the reality..thats why I m paying for it now..alone in this world, with no one to take care of me..its been a long year, an year without a single pleasant moment, an year without a single smile,an year without a single refreshing gush of fresh air.
I have kept distance from my parents also, for they keep telling me again an again to get married..which I wont.My soul is dead and I have no happiness left to share with someone.moreover, I cant carry the burden of having cheated one more person as I have no love left to give.
I am waiting for the same bus in which ryan and I used to travel..I so wish that he comes back and sees how lonely I am..how the dream life I had with him has turned into a living nighmare.people keep telling me that the the pain will lessen slowly but it multiplies every moment..I cannot bear it anymore..I have no reason to live..I should set my soul free now..it will be better if I also take my life here and now..I would prefer to die at once than to die every moment..
After that,everything will be fine..Me and Raj will unite in the heavens..yes,I am fed up of this life, I am coming Raj , I am coming....
(aanya goes to the middle of the road to be crushed beneath the oncoming bus)
some one yelled "Are you maaddd!!" and rushed towards her and pulled her back just in time.Aanya had fainted by then.
"Aanya ! are you alrite??"
..a very recognized voice said this words while sprinkling drops of water on her face to regain her conscious,
which lead to a tremendous outshoot of sensations caused by over exitement throughout aanya's body..
It was as if someone had injected the fluid of immortality into the dying roots of a rotten plant .. she opened her eyes slowly and saw a blurred image of a very known person...
he was none else but RYAN..!
she couldnot control her emotions and tears started rolling down her cheeks ..she wanted to say a lot, but no voice was coming out of her throat, her flowing tears and the way she was staring at ryan, said it all..the look on her face at that moment could be described as one of the purest form of happiness and relief.. she just stared and stared at him for a few moments, and then fainted again..
After a few hours, she regained her conscious.she found herself in the hospital bed. Ryan was sitting besides her,looking at her with deepest concern and care..aanya took a few sips of water and than without wasting a second aanya told him everything about the dreadful incident that took place when he was in mumbai doing MBA.
He was seriously shocked and he literally shouted in pain as he had no news of RAJ's death.This was because he had disconnected himself even from the common friends of him and Raj in order to lessen the pain he was feeling on every reminder of nisha being with Raj. he felt really sorry for the loss and assured nisha that he will be available for her whenever she needed him.
Ryan also told her about how much he missed her while doing MBA.How he would do ball dance alone on instrumental songs and imagined that she was in his arms. How he used to call half of the girls of college by aanya's name, as she was always on his mind.. and many more such examples and recollections.He also let her know that he had completed his MBA and was back in bangalooru and has also found a decent job.
(few more days went by and Aanya andryan jai were good friends again... aanya now had a reason to live)
AANYA:I had lost the meaning of life when Raj left this world.. I had taken and oath never to fall in love again... I never hoped that I would even be able to smile again.. but ever since ryan has came back I have started living again.. he always makes me smile whenever I am in pain... I think my love for ryan has started sprouting again..it would be better to ask him about it without wasting a chance..so I asked him whether he had somegirl in his life..
and he replied "YES.. !"
even he had made a 'practical choice' when he went to college as he knew we had no chance of getting together again. I was very disappointed, but at the same time happy for him. I couldn't put up courage to ask him any more questions in this regard after what all mess I had done earlier.I just accepted it as one more painful page of my destiny's book which I think is written ruthlessly by Demons and not by Gods..
RYAN: finally I saw aanya smiling..I felt so good that I couldnt express in words..even I got very sad and depressed on the way Raj took away his life.. somewhere inside I even felt guilty myself.. but then, since aanya was so seriously sad about this, I have suppressed my feelings and will try every bit to keep her happy..may the soul of Raj rest in peace.
she asked me a very crucial question today, of which I gave a very straight forward and blunt answer, that too in a sarcastic way.. I guess it hurt her..at least her face suggested so.. nevertheless, I am going to give her a surprise tomorrow..and I will also tell her more about the girl I had chosen to spend my life with..after all she is my friend now and I should take her advice on whether or not I have made a right choice.
AANYA: Today was one of the happiest days of my life..ryan took me to a magic show, when the magician called for unmarried volunteers for his act ryan raised his arms. He was called upon the stage and the magician hypnotised him.. He then asked him whether or not ryan was in love.. ryan Said yes, I was disappointed as It was now confirmed that ryan really had some girl in his life, as its not possible to lie in hypnotised condition.The magician than asked ryan to look into his eyes and think only and only about the girl he loved. ryan obeyed.The magician was supposed to draw a sketch of the girl ryan loved.
I was really not interested in this act as I didnot wanted to see the face of the girl who was soon going to be the better half of the love of my life, ryan.Nonetheless, I didnt even believed tht anyone can draw a meaningful sketch this way.
It was just 5 minutes to the act and the face outline of a beautiful girl was there on the canvas paper.The magician was such a good sketch artist that I just couldnt ignore his work, A few more minutes went by and I suddenly realised that the face of the girl resembled to a very familiar face..
that face was mine !!
I got tremendously excited and as the sketch was getting more and more refined, the features of my face were coming out as if it was my real photograph..I was completely out of my mind and awestrucked..my eyes were wide open and I was gasping for breath.The sudden spurge of happiness was so strong that it was almost surreal..I pinched myself to confirm that I was not dreaming.."ouch".. I was awake..
The magician then brought ryan out of hypnosis and asked him if the sketch resembled his girl..He said "yes, it indeed does,..and she is here only.. can we call her on stage please..aanya!" he shouted with joy..The spotlight came on me and everybody in the crowd was looking at me as I got up. My legs were trembling and I nearly tripped once while going towards the stage.. I am not used to gettin so much attention. I went to the stage and the crowd gave us a standing ovation.All were so happy to see two love birds unite. I felt really shy and hid myself under the big arms of ryan, my safest heaven. ahh what a feeling it was. I felt like I had lived a lifetime in just one moment. He had also brought a red flower with him and he proposed me in the typical fashion by getting on the knees and kissing my hands in front of the huge crowd who was cheering us with claps and whistles and said "will you be my soulmate?" and bowed down his head.How could I ever say no to him..afterall this was all I had ever wished for..Thank you ryan for making me feel so special and also thank you god..finally you listened to the voice of my heart..
ryan later on told me that this was all a setup which ryan had planned with the magician..I could do nothing but give him a smile which highly approved of his efforts..
(Aanya and ryan got married in two months time.)
On the day next to the wedding:
AANYA: haaah!..finaly the bad days are over, i said to myself,for i've found a safe nest to hide away from all the pains and sorrows;Ryan's arms. After seeing so much turmoil in the past 2 year, I am finally on cloud 9.
Its a beautiful morning, the sun has just rose and is moving lazily out of the horizon and is playing hide and seek behind the clouds..while the clouds of the color blue and pink are waiting on the other side for their turn..birds are chirping pleasantly as if they are sharing their joy of our union to one another..::Its amazing, how all of the sudden the things I never ever cared to notice have become so meaningful and close to my heart.Its all because of you ryan..its all because of you.
I know that I would never be able to pay back what I owe you but I promise you that I will give you all the love that someone so special should get. (aanya said looking at jai who was still in deep sleep)
one hour later :-
AANYa: On the first morning after our marriage I decided to start our new life by blending in our lives the sweetness of the chocolate that Raj had gifted me on my birthday.
Earlier I had thought that I would always keep it safe with me but then I thought we should get blessings from RAJ before we start our new life..So I unwrapped the beautiful heart shaped chocolate from the golden metallic wrapper and handed it over to ryan and asked him to have a bite and than let me have one too..
but ryan got a bit playful with it and decided that we two will bite the chocolate of love together..I was hesitant ,but he was my master now so I had to obey..
I bit my side of the chocolate and raj bit his side..
just a second had passed when ryan shrieked.I love you...niiihhh....nissshh..nisssshhha...For once,I felt he had lost his voice..he was holding his throat as if someone had choked it..
I was shocked and confused at the same time..as a normal chocolate could never do any harm.. so i thought he was just teasing me by making faces and altering his voice...I believed a few seconds later he would say "I am intoxicated by the poison of your love" or something of the sort just to pull my leg. He did a lot of such things when we were together as friends.so I just smiled,hugged him..and asked him to stop playing games,Life already had played enough of these silly games with me for the past two years.
..but I could sense the irony of the situation only when he coughed and spitted blood from his mouth..I was shocked..he was in deep pain,his eyes went shallow staring at me and he wasnt able to utter a word..He was staring in my eyes without blinking as if he wanted to preserve my memories deep within his soul. I screamed at once for help.. and then he was rushed to the hospital by my neighbors, I dont remember anything of those moments while he was in the operation theater, for I was completely blank and a few moments later I had fainted.
3 hours later:
Aanya: I half-opened my eyes when I saw ryan gazing softly at me and gently stroking my hair...
.
I felt dizzy as if i was under the influence of alcohol. He was looking so calm and serene. His skin was whiter than ever,his face and whole body were glowing like moon,He gently kissed my forehead, I smiled back to him,and he smiled too..and then I saw the corners of his eyes getting wet..this was the first time ever I had seen his eyes getting wet.he whispered "I will miss you my jaan.." as he settled one lock of my hair behind my ears.."I'll wait for you till the end of time"..
He then gazed innocently at my face for a few more seconds,I was also looking at him with amuzement..it was as if I was watching the most beautiful thing in this world..suddenly someone entered into the room..
ryan looked back.. and for a second it looked like I could see the person entering into the room through ryan's body as if it was translucent..and than *swwooooosssh* ryan's body dissected into millions of small shiny particles and then dissolved into thin air...my heart skipped a beat or two after what I saw.
The person was a doctor who came to me and announced that.
...handing me over the diamond pendant which had cut through the veins of his throat and heart..I kept looking at that place with my dry deserted eyes, longing to see him back.But he didnt come..I closed my eyes..and went into a deep.. deep sleep..I was told that I was brain dead for 7 days and to my dismay my life was revived after that.
The pendant was not mine and I wasnt able to figure out how it made into ryan's body. later on I realised that Raj must have hidden this pendant beneath the chocoate layer as a surprise for me on my birthday.He was worried that I might swallow it..perhaps that was the reason why he had written "chocolates are meant to be melted in mouth and not to be eaten" on the note..if only ryan or me had read this note before biting the chocolate..this accident would have never happened.what I thought was a silly note has indeed changed the course of my life..I wish I had swallowed the pendant instead of RYAN ..
I had lost the love of my life..and aso the one for whom I was the love of life.I can do nothing but regret my choices..all this would never had happened if I would have told ryan about the love I had for him when he was going to mumbai..its been another 5 years to this incidence and still I am nothing more than a living body deprived of its soul..
The End..
lessons learnt:
1.Express it in time if you love some one..
2.Never cheat.
3.Keep distance from confused lovers..
So guys, here ends my first ever effort to write a story or novel, please forgive me for any mistakes that I may have encountered,and thanks a lot for sparing time and reading my creation so patiently and diligently.Even I didnt wanted to give you guys a sad ending. But then I would have diverted from the moral of the story.And as they say it, the best lessons are those which are learned in pain.
