feel like killing myself

I am killing myself slowly enough

I guess I never was that tough
My energy is draining
As my mind is insaning,

It hurts so much
Let me lose touch
My heart doesn't need this
I just want to feel one small kiss
Of love, of feeling, of rightness,
And I wouldn't need to beg for numbness
Because my soul is so trapped
Inside a body that isn't mine
What am I to do?
 Give up and die too?
Or try my hardest to stay here
But what if I'm really over there . .